I don’t know how to star. I’m confuse .. i don’t know if i am losing myself or getting to know my self. I take a step slowly to avoid some mistakes and sometimes, i just stay in the same ground thinking about everything! eveywhere! everyone, and how i feel. No words can expalin how much it hurts me. This emptiness is killing me softly!
I am an optimistic person so that i can control how i feel. But seriuosly , i really want to scream. Maybe you are confusing right now… What’s the problem ? The problem is NOTHING. Do you know what it means? Will you keep asking what’s the problem if i’d answer it with nothing? Maybe you can not understand but this is what i feel …
I don’t know why do i keep doing these things if i don’t have a reason. It’s not a big deal but i am searching for something i don’t know.Someone asked me ” Can you tell me what’s wrong ? I can’t take this moments! You always fake a smile! You’re not hyper like before.” I was shocked. That person knows me. I know it to my self that i am changing. i don’t like those things that i like before. I am searching for the mood that i felt before. But it seems like i am searching for NEW.
Sometimes, i act like a strange person to my friends and we always got a problem with that. It is true that the first impression will last. I can not regret them but they can not regret me too, because having a new desire is sometimes gives you a true happiness. These thing makes me feel NOTHING..! and that’s the problem but i keep believing in positive because i am an Optimistic person.
I have everything i want… but these things has Nothing.